I'M BACKKKKKKKKKKK

I’ve been absent for what? 2 months?

In these two months, I promise that I’ve attempted to come back at least 15 times. It has crossed my mind. Infact i took action, but I never ended up finishing the post or posting because things have just been getting in my way, honestly. It’s work and other life challenges. Plus, I’ve had a lot to say, but I never really had the time nor the motivation to type. I’ve been on my laptop for at least 5 hours every day for work, and it started to give me the ick to keep typing for more than that. I even attempted to record an audio for you guys. I think I still have it. But I haven’t figured out how to post it.

Damn, I’m so freaking rude, and I might have lost my manners somewhere along the way in these 2 months. If you’re new here, HIIIIIIIIIIIIII, and if you’re returning, Good evening my cousins, I’ve missed you guys. How have you been? If you’ve read to this point, it could be for either of these reasons: you’re in love with me, and you don’t know how to tell me, or you have the patience of the Holy Spirit, because why that plenty shalaye at the beginning of the post? I guess the guilt is just getting to me, hence the plenty grammar.

I’ve been fine guys, almost losing my mind, but not yet, and like I said earlier, I have a lot to gist you guys, and I don’t know how or where to start, but for this post, I’ll address one of the things I’d like to talk to you guys about.

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About a month ago, there was an attack in a community in Jos, and if you know me, or have a little idea, I schooled in Jos. Unfortunately, it was where I stayed and where my grandparents currently stay. It was brutal, 2 of our neighbors were murdered. I couldn’t sleep that Sunday night. It started at 7:30 and continued for 2 hours. Those people? GONE. And I wasn’t in Jos at that time, but the trauma met me where I was because it was too close to home. It was home.

There was a student of Unijos who was kidnapped, and I wouldn’t even want to go into that detail.

Just a few days ago, A guy was shot dead in the day, in public.

And you know what? I cannot lie to you guys, I’m scared, and I’m afraid. I’m scared that we are all just waiting to die. I’m scared that it’s not so far away anymore. This insecurity is creeping slowly towards our doorsteps. And every single day, I experience one scare or another. I’m always on my toes because my imagination keeps running extremely wide. It just makes me wonder what all our fates are going to be in a few years and if there’s an actual solution to these problems. Is this how we’ll continue? Is this the life we would continue to live, and is there any sort of hope? My heart hurts every day for the safety of this country. It’s already bad enough that things are barely affordable, and we have a lot of other things that we have to deal with. If only insecurity could disappear, I think we can chest a hard economy. I don’t know mehn because nobody deserves to go in the hands of other men.

It’s really a heavy subject in my heart, and I honestly don’t know how we keep moving on without these things and I wish we could wake up to a better country.

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I honestly can’t wait to catch up with you guys cause it might take a few more posts for us to stabilize, but I hope there are still people excited to read from me. And if there aren’t, Oh well, I guess I’ll find new people.

Ciao cousins

Edit as you read una no dey pay me.